Monday, January 12, 2009

Hot & Cold

My latest favourite song!
Dedicated to all the bitches!!! Eff Off!

You change your mind Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS Like a bitch I would know
And you always think
Always speak
Crypticly
I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, You don't really want to stay, no
You, but you don't really want to go-o

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be Just like twins So in sync
The same energy Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring
I should know that you're not gonna change

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, You don't really want to stay, no
You, but you don't really want to go-o

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind Like a girl changes clothes

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really want to stay, no
You, but you don't really want to go-o

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:12 PM

Walking Away

I suddenly started to hum this song today and I thought that the lyrics best describe what I feel.
Yes, I'm gonna be walking away...

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 4:48 PM

Chasing the Rabbit!

Gentle Readers, (tk termasuk Shahreil eh!)

why don't each one of you drop a line on your opinion about chasing the Rabbit?

Bagaimana dan apakah cara yang terbaik utk itu?

I can't stop thinking about the Rabbit lahhhhhhhhh!

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 2:54 PM

Blog Tag

Since I got tagged by Along, I think its only courteous to go along with it. Plus, it's been a while since do this kinda thing - dolu2, slalu buat kat Frenster.

Here it goes then!

1.Full Name: Nurashikin Mohamad

2.Nicknames: depending on whic category u r from: family calls me Ikin, with Cik Niah calling me Ashikin. (dad, sometimes call me that too, bt whenever he does, I get a bit scared, dunno y. mcm the tone is like marah and like i did something wrong. so until now, i dun like it wen ppl call me ashikin. only my dad can, and cik niah i ges.) cuzzies call me Kak Ikin. frens, colleagues dan yg sewaktu dgnnyer call me Shikin. The closer ones will call me Kin. Or Shiks. I also go by the name of Ms Manager / Goddess / Diva. DUN EVER CALL ME NUR OR NURA!

3.Age: err.... im 21 going on 17 this year... (be jealous, bt that's the real age. my NRIC however says something wayyyy older bt that's just because I wanted to go clubbing and so i had the age change. N I M STICKING TO THIS STORY!)

4.Gender: Wanita Melayu Terakhir selepas Along

5.Where do You Live: World's Best Habitat 1997 - Tampines!

6.Relationship status: Sexy Single and Ready to Mingle!!!!

7.Siblings: Nurhayati (28+), Nurdiyana(24+), Nuraini (19+), Nurmira (14+), Mahathir(13+)

8.Pets: Always wanted cats but my mum does not allow. Ever had fishes, terrapin and rabbits.

9.Screen name: Disturbed Angel

APPEARANCE
11.Hair Color: black enuff. i wich it was pure black like those in the ads!

12.Hair length: Long and i love it this way!

13.Eye Color: Hitam ler (melainkan aku pakai nkaler lenses lah kan)

14.Height: 162cm

15.Piercings: pierced my ears around 7-8 times. bt at the same hole. used to haf major pierced ear problems!

16.Tattoos: it's a beautiful art - bt i dun see why it shld be on the skin. (kulit tgh muda mmg lah nampak cantik, bt dh tuek nnt, mak oiii burukssss!)

17.Shoe Size: depending on the cut 7-8

18.Jeans Size: dulu aku pernah pakai saiz 27..now aku pakai saiz 24++++++++++

19.Make-Up: the works lah! mak andam per! M.A.C ambassador tau!

20.Dye Your Hair: Never!

MY FAVORITES

21.Food: ohhh, byk nie... asian food basically!

22.Drink: Fruit juice, Tea and Coke, coke, coke!

23.Color: it changes all the time, bt my all time fav is pink and right now i m crazy for pink. after the CNY however I will chg to green for feng-shui purposes! ;p

24.Store: Victoria's Secret!!! Dorothy Perkins, M.A.C!!! (eh, sumer yg mahal2 ehkkkk. patut lah org igtkan aku high maintenance!)

25.Movie: P.S I love You, citer2 P.Ramlee, Citer2 hindi lama, dn mcm2 lah citer. malas lak aku nk pikir satu persatu.

26.Kind Of Alcohol: the one in perfumes! I dun drink dah-ling!

27.Ice Cream Flavor: Apa pun aku lantak, asalkan dier bukan Rum & Raisins! (tipah tertipu nyah!)

29.Season: yg ala2 tk panas, tp tk hujan, mcm mendung2 redup gitu, angin pun sepoi2 bahasa... wahhhh! best dokkkk!

30.Video Game: Brick Game kira tk? PSP pun yg game tk sengal2 ah. Yg racing2 gua suka beb!


HAVE YOU EVER?

31.Smoked a cigarette: is it even legal for me to confess here???? well, wat cn i say? wen u r young, u tend to do stupid stuffs. I m still young btw, bt no longer stupid! alah, takat try2 out jer... tk sangkut pun...

32.Done Any Drugs: panadol and the werks.

33.Gotton Drunk: on coke yes! I always get high on coke. on excessive coke-drinking.

34.Gone Skinny Dipping: kalau aku buat bende mcm nie, dh lama org2 sedunia mati sbb kebutaan yg melarat melihat apa yg tidak patut mereka lihat. lainlah kalau badan mcm jessica alba.

35.Bonged a beer: say NO to drinking!

36.Had Sex: i am a member of the CV clan. CV stands for Cursed Virginz. You think????

37.Kissed Same Sex: on the cheek

38.Done Anything Sexual With Same Sex: I'm extremely straight! Prefer meat to milk eh!

39.Eaten Sushi: duh!!! eh, mcm dh lama tk makan sushi gitu eh....

40.Broken A Bone: tidak pernah dan harap2 takkan pernah!

DO YOU/ARE YOU

41.Like Your Handwriting: sometimes, when it looks neat, hate it otherwise.

42.Have Any Bad Habits: being too nice to people. its one thing i cnt kick off!

43.Hate Yourself: Of coz! All the time!

44.Shy: depends on situation and current mood. generally ppl will say i m nt shy, bt actually i m very shy esp when i meet a guy i like. mak kau, trus tergamam n bodoh semcm. so if u r a guy and i am very chummy wif u, chances r i dun like you! bt if like i damn dumbfounded, i have the hots for u man! eh if i nt shy, dh lama aku masuk all those singing comp!

45.Tolerant Of Others: hahahahahahha! VERY!!!

46.Aggressive Or Passive: a lil bit of both

47.Have A Journal:aku nk blog pun susah!!! bt i di have ramblings on pieces of papers that i keep.

48.Emotionally Strong: very. bt its breaking down as the days pass...

49.Read The News Paper: its aritual. if i dun read my papers in the morning, i'll b in a bad mood for the morning

50.Confident: hahah depends too i guess. everyone says i am. truth is i LOOK like i am. u have no idea wat goes in my mind

VIEWS AND BELIEFS

51.Is There A God: Allahu Akbar!

52.Does He Have A Gender: again, Allahu Akbar!

53.Do Ghosts Exists: duh!

54.What About Witches: i see them everyday!

55.Miracles: i do, just haven't had the chance to experience it myself.

56.What Do You Think About Abortion: NO NO NO!!!!

57.Premarital Sex: NO NO NO!!!!

58.Life On Other Planets: telah dijanjikan...

59.Porn: Hm... dun be too excessive lah.....

60.Cosmetic Surgery: i agree wif along - suka hati koranglah. Tapi bila dah buat, janganlah jadi hipokrit and kata... Oh.. Hidung saya jadi mancung sebab saya selalu ambil wuduk, bibir saya extra muncung sebab saya selalu makan sambal belacan, dagu saya jadik runcing sebab saya selalu buat senaman muka. Podah! Ingat kitorang ni budak ta gi skola pe?!

CAN YOU

61.Sing Well: VERY WELL (hahahahahaah! puji diri sendiri nampak!)

62.Play An Instrument: used to.

63.Write Well: used to, Now dah lost the touch, I think

64.Skateboard: does the one i bought for mahathir when he was younger count? shld be lah..

65.Take A Shot Without A Chaser: HUH?

66.Say the Alphabet Backwards: pernah! maa kecik2 dulu..

67.Snow Board: kat singapore kan ada snow...

68.Juggle: everyday of my life

69.Do A Split: i always split up wif ppl. does that count?

70.Draw: stick men!

THE FUTURE

71.Plan On Marriage: hm... tricky one... insyaAllah i will nikah on the 24th of Jan 2009. Semua dijemput hadir! Kalau tk jadi, my engagement on the 10 oct nxt yr, my ceremony on 9 oct 2010. tunggu for my invite! to who... it depends.... kalau awie is no longer married! ;p Oh nk serious answer eh? I do wanna get married - my dream is always to be a housewife. Bt unfortunately, I dun think I'll ever get married. Why? Haiz... I dunno dun ask me, I dun fit the criteria to be a wife/partner i guess. And that's y i DO NOT LIKE it when ppl ask me abt marriage and I always say the next wedding will be Diyana's.

72.Kids: if i dun get married how to haf kids. I wun adopt since i think its unfair for the child to not haf a fatherly love. alah, jaga jer si anak-anak sedara ku... si ryan tu jer dh handful!

73.And Their Names: i used to haf a list. bt its no longer valid as... read ans 71.

74.Occupation: Business Woman

75.Where You Want To Live: in a place far far away from shitheads! actaully i want to own a few property all over the place!

76.Big Or Small House: if i live alone, i wnat it small and very cozy. mcm loft style pun ok. tapi if i still stay with my family, definitely a huge house, kiter kan keluarga besar, Villa maybe???

77.Do You Want To Live Near People: its always better to live near ppl i gess.

78.Long Driveway Or Short: kalau alone, short. kalau family, long driveway. ala-ala2 rumah besau mcm castlle kan, orang kaya.....

79.Income: enough for my parents to live luxuriously, my siblings to have no worries, and myself to go tru each day.

80.Cars: i want to have my beetle, mini cooper, bmw, mercedes, ford, jaguar, and a whole shit of exp cars! whahahahahahahah! n a limo lah. my parents will have a chauffeur, i drive myself. diyana can walk. the rest go public!

THIS/THAT

81.Walmart/Target: Victoria's Secret?

82.Chocolate/Vanilla: chocolate

83.Night/Day: night.

84.McDonalds/Burger King: mcdonalds.

85.Cats/Dogs: Meow!

86.Fruits/Veggies: Fruits!

87.Pillows/Blankets: lotsa bantalssss and then one comforter!

88.Pepsi/Coke: COKE COKE COKE!

89.Alcohol/Weed: neither

90.Reading/Writing: reading

RANDOM

91.Biggest Fear: death of my loved ones (one thing that i think i will nvr be prepared for and if there was a choice, i dun ever wanna go tru it. truth is, the day is getting too near...)

92.Compliment You Get Often: very sweet, very confident, very fashionable

93.What Would You Change About Yourself: a lot say to list down... almost everything....

94.Regrets: i m carrying that regret on my shoulders everywhere i go, no wonder i cnt move on...

95.Gotten Arrested: nope

96.Are You Ticklish: tak sangat

97.Longest Relationship: with life - almost 26 years man!

98.How Much TV Do You Watch: not much anymore. growing old sucks!

99.What color is your bedroom: tk prasan lak. white kot.

100.Are you happy: my life-long goal! haven't been for quite a while.

Would like these people to do the trivia too:
Nadia
Yani
Ryan

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 10:25 AM

Friday, January 09, 2009

Another Bombshell Dropped, Another Spirit Died... And then You Came...

Only a few days into the year and I am officially declaring 2009 a bad year! Why? Nuthing good has happened since, that's why. And screw the 2009 is a good year for everyone generally bt not for the boars (pigs)! If I fast forward to 2010, i'll be a yr older and still unlucky. Shit shit shit!

Met my cuzzies last nite for a short while and Nadia told us some stuffs that she initially wanted to keep as a secret. The things that she told broke my already-broken heart. Why are you all doing this to me? Why do all of you like to accuse me of things I didn't do? Why is a good deed being reciprocate with bad name?

I am not angry at you Nadia for telling me, as I have suspected it all along bt to have it confirmed, especially at this time when I am feeling rock bottom low, is a huge stab into my heart. How could she say that? How could they? Is this the "Let's Attack Shikin Together" month?

This is so typical. I tried my best to be the best for everyone and yet this is what I get. I tried to be the best sister - they hate me 98% of the time and that 2% is only when they are in trouble and need my money, my things, my help and when I am on holidays coz they will get gifts. I tried to be the best daughter - I am seconded still. I have to put in effort to communicate, be close to and be loved by you bt she doesnt need to at all. I tried to be the best cousin and niece - you only used me time and again and forgot everything that I did for you. And like when that is not enough, you got other people to turn against me. You told them the untruth, acting like an angel and a victim when the real victim in this whole mess is me. You make me look bitter, mean, selfish and jealous and for what, may I ask? and why? I tried to be the best friend - time and again you disappoint me. Leaving me in the lurch when you have a better half and come running to me when you are in trouble. And when I decide enough is enough and turn away, you push all blames on me. I tried to be the best girlfriend - and yet no one stayed long enough.

So you see, I tried. I really did and I'm very tired. Very very tired of going through the same cycle of all downs and no ups. I know there's such a thing call karma and what goes around do come around but I have waited for it to happen for so long that I gave up hoping seeing it happen. Do i really look not human to any one of you? Do I really look like I don't have feelings or feel hurt? Do I look like i don't have fears, tears, emotions? Do I look like a piece of wood to you?
Maybe I do.

And maybe I will be...

But this time the phone call I was so waiting did not come to enlighten me...
He came in person, and that was good enough.

"Hatiku bukan seketul daging yang tidak berdenyut tanpa rasa...." - Anon

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 3:56 PM

Friday, January 02, 2009

CVs 1st Camping

A few weeks before the year ended, I was informed about CV's plans to celebrate New Year together cum 13th anni. It was suppose to be an ala-ala camping style at Changi Beach. What was my first thought? I didn't reply of course. When one of them then sms me to ask again, I said "If I don't have any other plans".

And I don't. Why? Coz I checked with my cuzzies and they said.. err I don't think we have any plans. Please go ahead.

So I said ok. I wasn't too sure how it was gonna be like. Bt at least I am no longer doing the planning and organizing. I'll just be an audience. I reassured myself that Yaya was going to be there so it should not be a problem and too awkward.

Yaya wasn't there by the way. She couldn't make it last min due to abdominal pains - I think she created that one up to avoid the gonjeng. Yaya, yaya! Sp it was just the four of us. And Nad dropped a "oh, 'asy won't be staying over too." so the CV clan, is not really complete and the supposedly CV 1st camping trip, is really not. Bt what's new? After 13 years, I know the rhythm by heart. It's just so typical.

'Asy is late as usual too. So I waited for bloody 30mins for them. Nad's parents sent us there. When we reached, Rah was nowhere to be seen, which is as usual too. So we pitched the tent (doing a good job at it!) and rested while waiting for Rah. She came almost after an hour later bringing lotsa food - egg toast and nuggets. She cooked! I almost wanted to faint and doubted I won't suffer from food poisoning. Bt since its her first time, we all ate - and complained. DUH!

I was pretty much wondering why is this Rah doing all the planning and organizing and agreeing to bring food and even cooked them, when 'Asy said, oh a guy friend of hers is dropping by later. I dunno about you bt my interpretation of dropping by i saying hi and bye. Bt he came and stayed. Till 4plus am. We played card games lah. Konon-konon having fun lah. 'Asy left ard 2 plus btw, right at the moment when Rah's guy friend came.

When the clock strike 12, we didn't even realise it. We were late by a few minutes and did the happy new year everyone and hugged everybody. and take pics. I wonder why I didn't flash my pink camera and took a single pic of the whole thing. Rah kept complaining about insects and was getting paranoid and Nad was anal about cleanliness. I just said, "you guys wanted camping and this is camping" Rah whined and said, if there's more insects towards the later part of the night, can we go home??? I shooked my head - inside my heart.

I din complain about anything except the toilet. We all did. Toilet is gross with a big capital GROSS. We should have dragged a portable toilet. Bt something happened too in the toilet. Guess who I met?

An ex's current gf. Yup.. That harrassing bitch. Can I say it again? BITCH!!! Yup, I'm talking about you alright. I realise it was her instantaneously. She gave me the look. I pretended to not know who she is. She still gave me "THE LOOK". You know what, I should be giving her the look. The irony of my life. Just a few hours before that incident I was thinking " Hey... 7 years ago, this was the last day I saw him." and the first hour into the new year - I am seeing his gf live and alive, upclose and personal, right on my face, for the first time. I should have known that was a major sign for what's coming up in 2009. Fyi, after the day, she is harassing me again. I just don't get what she wants. I meant she won - she got what I wanted and what she wanted. And I am not even bothering her. Take him - I don't care! (ok maybe I care a bit, bt seriously you can take him, coz he no longer is the man I knew) BITCH - FUCK OFF!

ok, now that I've let off some steam and acted like a 19 yr old evil white bitch (the other bitch that i no longer hate, at least not that much, coz actually i'm starting to like her work bt i will still call her the evil white bitch as that's the only nickname deemed suited for her best, besides "si pompan giler" which i use on and off), i feel so much better.

so how did my new year celebration go?
With a bang.




coz i really wanted to get a gun and shoot myself.

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:29 PM

Happy New Year 2009!

Happy 2009 every one! May the new year bring new opportunities for all of you and may all of you, my gentle readers, be blessed with love, happiness, success, wealth and health!

Now let's do the what I'm proud about 2008 and what I want from 2009 tingy that the cuzzies did at McD on the eve of New year last year as in (2007).

2008:
1) I pretty much did what I wanna do. Hhahaahahhahah! Oklah, not really. But er, I was starting slowly to create my path there.
2) I went for my operation! This I'm fuckingly proud of! Serious! Biler lagi sey. I mean I have been procrastinating it for years and only in 2008 I decided to hint hint to my mum and this year I went for the op without much thought into it as well I know that if I put in much thought I will never carry it out! I am proud to be lumpless!
3) I went for 2 Bangkok and 1 Jakarta trip. That was fun!!!!
4) I got to makeover the room. Cost me quite a bit. *faint*
5) My greatest achievement of the year - hahhahahahhaha wic is not my achievement at all, is my cutey pie Lil R! I still cnt figure out y he's so cute when his parents are like... errrrrmmm... hmmmm......
6) I signed up drumming course for mahathir and has been paying for it. *faint*
7) Tok Aji hugged and kissed me this year out of the blue during one of the visits. I'm proud coz konon2 mcm dapat blessing lah. I would like to believe so.
8) I strongly voice out certain opinions to some people though its really not what they wanted to hear and they din really follow it in the end. Bt I am proud of doing what I did instead of being a bystander and gossip behind their back. At least when I gossip now, it's not so behind their back.
9) I tried to start up a business. I'm proud as I finally get down to it man! Hahahaha! Thx Encik Hamid and Kak Asilah for believing in us.
10) I am proud that I am more diligient in blogging this year! I know you lot will complain about what diligent??! Well, in comparison k. Plus I do blog, just that the past month have been nuthing bt BZ BZ BZ!

OKlah, stop now with the proud list before I create some nonsensical stuffs and be too proud!

2009:
1) Health! Important important stuff man! 2008 is down with health luck so 2009 have to be better in health luck. According to feng shui, health is my only positive attribute this year, so i'm looking forward to it. When May comes and I am given the clearance from my GP, I can start my exercise regime again! I'm all prepared for it!!! And since I won the Staff Wellness Pgm this yr (got $30 voucher sey!!!), I am more determined and motivated to go for more health courses.

2) Success! Since this is not in my fengshui list (apparently, I have lotsa backstabbing among my workplace and colleagues, which I think is sooo true anyway), I am determined to reverse the luck. heheehhehe. Degil mah! This kinda thing we have to work towards right? I wish for success in making it big, at last, for real!

3) Money & Wealth! Siapa lah tak nk nie kan? Every year mesti nk per.... I want more and more and more of it. And Alhamdulillah, I have started by having 4 tutees and 1 pending, meaning I officially work from 10am-10pm on Sats. I officially have no life!

4) Love! Aiyoooo this one, another one. Every year nak, bt every year tk dapt! hahahahahahahahah! Since I am getting engaged nxt year Oct, I have to work hard towards loveeeeeee. hahahaha. eh wait, lupa. aku kan nk nikah this 24th jan 09? shit! i forgot my own wedding! Seious kit eh. According to fengshui, I have to run away from the snake (MS) and run towards the rabbit (Nadzrul). HAHAHAHAHAHAH! Klakar perrrr?????! Can i run towards awie instead???? or hans????

5) Friends! - BLAH!

6) Family! I shall work towards imparting all my knowledge and skills to Lil R. AND TOGETHER WE SHALL FIGHT EVIL IN THIS WORLD (BETTER KNOWN AS AH-BAH-CHIN)!!! Oklah, this year, in comparison, I do not visit my grandparents as often. I shall strive to a better job at it bt its damn difficult since I'm running around every day of my life. Hopefully, it'll get better after May.

7) Spirituality! I shall find time to re-join the wkly blajar on Sundays. I also plan to really take up religious studies and learn Arabic at the centre, memandangkan after years of learning sendiri, ttp aku lupa2. hehehehehheh ;p InsyaAllah...

OKlah, let's nt hope for too much, nnt disappointed kan?

So Gentle Readers,
Tell me your resolution for 2009 lah!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
WELKAM 2009! AND FAREWELL 2008!!!

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:29 PM

When My Phone Rings

On 30th December 2008, just when I officially declare that nothing can make me feel better till the rest of the week, I received a phone call at approximately 5.20pm.

That phonecall, from that someone (well, if you are reading this, you know who you are), surprised me (hell, yeah!) till I don't really know whether it really happened or I was hallucinating it. But it was nice that, that someone called me at the perfect time. Right about after crying silently, and trying to calm down. Well, you kinda shook my whole system to calm down in about 2 seconds anyway. You said some things that totally lighten me up. Said some things that almost make me faint as it was just too shocking that it came from you. I almost wanna test you on that! ;p

Thank you very much for making my day!

P/S: Now, let's not be a jerk k?

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:28 PM

Blog updated

wokey, i know i ain't been blogging for a while but i shall update again about the stuffs that happened after JKT.

1) Fati got married and had sex. DUH! well, how did I know? Long story short, she told me. DUH! I won't tell details here lah k.

2) Went to watch soccer match with the whole entire family. About 30 of us in total! Bringing Atiqah and Nadia who watched a live match at stadium for the first time and love it! We lost by the way. Something which is obviously not fair coz we did a much much better job then the opponent. Bt that's the rule of any game. Win or lose.

3) Yani broke up with Hakim while Atiqah, Nadia and myself had seafood dinner in Newton. Damn! I miss the foooddddd!

4) I had three days of shopping! Day one was in Johor for the EAS trip. Day two was with Natasha where I bought lotsa lingerie (sexyyy!) and Day three was during Christmas when I went shopping with the cuzzies! Fun Fun Fun! I literally shopped till I dropped. actually my bank account did.

5) I saw Nadzrul again afetr 7mths????? He still werks in F&C!!!!! I thought he didn't remember me as you know we didnt do the flirting thing. Bt something happened towarsd the end when his colleague pass him my card and ask him to go to me and he was allo paisey and pushing each other and then the colleague came and was gigling2 and when I asked her she was like errr nuthing and when i noticed my named was underrlined i asked her she said "because he.." and then "errrr! forget watever i said!" yani said that he was jumping2 when he saw my card. bt still i cnt figure him out. wanna ask my number ask je lahhhhhhhhhh! ;p i told along the whole story and along said " OMG! He sooo wanted to ask for ur number!" hehehehehheheheheh best nyer!

6) for the first time in my life i did something to my eyebrow. i went threading, n i like the way it looks!

7)we wanted to do the gather and gossip while watching tv at rumah atiqah bt end up well we did just dat actually. they cook lasagne and i had my balls. i requested for that lah. how cn i not haf my balls kan??? i love balls! ;p we watched 4 episodes of friends season 1.

8)yaya got DE-CV-ED! she is now officially married to Fazrin. i was asked to be her "best lady" and ala2 assistant mak andam gitu. sekali aprt hadang2, everyone push me to be the rep! including her makciks all. i punyer lah paisey! so we did the hadang2 tingy recycling the pantun used for along's hadang2. they were very happy with the pantun. hahahahahah!

9)a "fren" attacked me through sms.

10) another "fren" attacked me through sms and msn.

11) SOMEONE said some stuffs that enlighten my whole world, for a while.

12) waiting for that someone to continue enlightening me.

13) someone is being such a jerk.

14) i hate someone.

15) OK I DON'T.

16) let's move on to other updates: went camping to celebrate new yr and CV's 13th anni. during gift exchange i'm suppose to get yaya's gift bt since she wasnt there i didn't get the gift and now she is on her hornymoon i wun see ny gift till after the 19th. sadddddd!

17) school term reopens n the year doesnt look any new. still hoping for a miracle. SOMEONE!!!!

18) tuition starts with 2 new students and more to come. saturday is officially burnt!

19) cleaned up my room and took 12 hours to do that. byk nyer barang. i just realise i have one whole almari of bags!!! gasp!!!!! i'm outta bras coz none can fit me anymore so i gave them away to aini n amira coz they are like brand new nvr been worn. sometimes i wonder y i buy. I have lotsa lacy undies and no bras. i officially have to go shopp at victoria's secret again. i mean after almost a 3mth break i deserve it right? dun u dare think that i quit shopping at VS!

20) decided that i cnt figure ppl out.

so, yeah, nuthing great happened. just the normal routine. boring kan? dat's y i dun update my blog!

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:27 PM

The Worst Last Week of the Year

I officially had the worst last week of the year in my entire life.
Talking about leaving with a bang and starting the year with a grand entrance!
It doesn't help that I am abso-fucking-lutely stress, busy, depressed and tired, bt friends, or should I say so-called-friends, who by the way, are supposedly be the ones that can make me feel better, just make it all worse!

At this point, can I have some personal space and be a bit vulgar? Fuck, it's my blog, who cares!
FUCK YOU PEOPLE!!!!
Yup, I'm, angry all right - thanks to you!

Lemme ask what exactly do you want from me and what exactly do you expect me to be? All of you seems to want a piece of me but the truth is you don't and puh-lease don't fucking deny that! Don't start accusing and questioning and judging me when you have never reflected your own actions. When you do, I don't question or judge, I let it slide. Why? Because we are adults. And before asking me to reflect and check my conscience, which is crystal clear by the way, why don't you grow up first?

For almost 2 mths I don't hear from you and now you are turning the table on me? And for the other one, what is this, a payback time huh? Read into sms konon, why don't you read yours first!

I've just had about enough of all this shit. I am not going to entertain you and walk away- not because I'm afraid of losing the argument, bt because I know I already won.

Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 5:27 PM